*PgAL/PAIF check in 3/22*

[sophiegrace]

Good morning,



Although we are a smaller group it seems as though we have an unfair amount of us who have not has an easy journey. This weekly thread is to get out your thoughts and release your fears in a safe area. Trigger warnings are not necessary.

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If you are new to this thread and feel comfortable sharing, please include a brief history that the group can reference as we get to know each other.



Please tag me if you want to be added to the check in.



How far along are you?



How are you doing mentally?

Physically?



Any appointments this week?



Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week?



QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be?



tgrimes1980 - PgAl, MMC 10 wks

peanutmuse – PgAL/PAIF, m/c 1/13, 6/13, 9/15, IUI for DS1, TTC 23 cycles for this pg

sophiegrace - PgAl, loss at 25 wks

legitlizard - PgAL, early loss, Crohn's

robinbird - PgAl, MMC 13 wks

danib - PgAL/PAIF, loss at 5.5 wks

shedreamsincolor – PgAL, loss at 16 wks

kleigh – PgAl/PAIF, CP

goldenlove3 – PgAL/PAIF, TTC 31 cycles, one ectopic, Pg after IVF FET #1

calindi – PAIF

hangry – PgAL, loss at 8 wks

artmusiclife – PgAL/PAIF – TTC since S12, early loss N12, 5 IUIs, IFV w/ICSI &PGS, F16 FET resulting in this BFP

@sarahwithanh – PgAL/PAIF - TTC Aug14, MMC 12 wks

elliecat17 - PgAL, BFP1 1/12/14: MC 1/15/14, BFP2 5/6/14: MC 5/10/14, BFP3 12/29/14: MC 1/1/15, BFP4 2/28/15: MC 4/8/15

[peanutmuse]

How far along are you? 6 weeks



How are you doing mentally? Nervous right now. Ultrasound later today. Feeling hopeful, but also trying to brace myself. My statistics for this particular ultrasound are 1 out of 4. Hoping to make that 2 out of 5 today!

Physically? Nauseous and tired.


Any appointments this week? Aforementioned u/s.



Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? Nope



QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Maui.



sophiegrace, I am sorry to nitpick. Can you change mine to 23 *cycles* (not months)?

[elliecat17]

How far along are you? 4w 5d



How are you doing mentally? I'm really REALLY trying not to freak out. I was doing really good until I had my blood draw yesterday. It was at 51. It's better then last time, but it's still a little on the low end for where we are. These first few weeks are so hard. This is the 5th time I've been at week 4. UGH. But then I think about it and I compare it to the past 4 times and this one feels different. It really does. And I cling to that like Rose to her door.

Physically? Nausea that comes and goes in waves. But it's stronger then it's ever been, so that helps me some mentally. I've also had a lot of stretching/mild cramping that switches sides and TONS of bloating and of course gas, which I'm sure is contributing to the mild cramping feels.



Any appointments this week? More blood work on Wednesday. I'm getting betas, progesterone, my thyroid and my folic acid levels checked.



Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? If you want to put my loss history here it it: BFP #1: 1/12/14, MC: 1/15/14. BFP#2: 5/6/14, MC: 5/10/14, BFP#3: 12/29/14, MC: 1/1/15. BFP#4: 2/28/15, MC 4/8/15. BFP#5: 3/17/16 Please be our Rainbow.



QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Ireland.

[sophiegrace]

I fixed it peanutmuse, I'm sorry for that!

Please, if anyone else needs something fixed/changed/updated let me know. It takes two seconds.

[sophiegrace]

elliecat17 I updated your stats and want you to know how hard I'm pulling for you. You are so deserving of your time for a rainbow. Do you go for another draw tomorrow?

[goldenlove3]

sophiegrace since you offered, can you change mine to "31 cycles TTC, one ectopic, PG after IVF FET#1"?


How far along are you? 6w6d

How are you doing mentally? I keep going back and forth between happy and scared. I'm so nervous for our next US. I hope we see some growth and a strong HB.

Physically? Pretty good. No major complaints.

Any appointments this week? US on Friday

Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? Can't think of anything.

QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Somewhere with an ocean, beach and palm trees.

[elliecat17]

Mar 22, 2016 8:42:52 GMT -5 sophiegrace said:

elliecat17 I updated your stats and want you to know how hard I'm pulling for you. You are so deserving of your time for a rainbow. Do you go for another draw tomorrow?

Thanks and yep. and i'm so trying not to be nervous! I am so nauseous today and I'm not sure it it's pregnancy or nerves. LOL I'm going to finish my chem homework and sit in the bath with books and candles and music and try and relax!

[kleigh]

How far along are you? 6w 2d

How are you doing mentally? Physically?
Mentally feeling much better after yesterday's ultrasound. My nervousness/fear of there not being any heartbeat is replaced by my nervousness of there being two. How are we going to do this?! I think the heartbeats were on the slower side of normal (111 and 126) but thy both measures well and I'll stay hopeful with that. Physically feeling wonderful, starting with some aversions though.

Any appointments this week? Yesterday's ultrasound

Any Q/C/T this week? Not so far

QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Harbor Island or OC, California

[peanutmuse]

Mar 22, 2016 8:47:51 GMT -5 kleigh said:

How far along are you? 6w 2d

How are you doing mentally? Physically?
Mentally feeling much better after yesterday's ultrasound. My nervousness/fear of there not being any heartbeat is replaced by my nervousness of there being two. How are we going to do this?! I think the heartbeats were on the slower side of normal (111 and 126) but thy both measures well and I'll stay hopeful with that. Physically feeling wonderful, starting with some aversions though.

Any appointments this week? Yesterday's ultrasound

Any Q/C/T this week? Not so far

QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Harbor Island or OC, California

For how far along you are, those heartbeat rates are fine. I am sure they will pick up in the next few days.

[kleigh]

peanutmuse Yesterday I was at 6 weeks and 1 day and the RE said they were measuring right at that with 6 weeks 1 day (the 111 heart beat) and 6 weeks 2 days (the 126 heart rate).

[shedreamsincolor]

sophiegrace you are so sweet to run this check in. Can you remove PAIF from my check-in? Thank you!


How far along are you? 5w5d (my initial dates were a little off)

How are you doing mentally? I had an awful day on Saturday due to lack of symptoms so far this pregnancy and was just convinced I had MC. Add in one episode of very light spotting and I was a total wreck for about 24 hours. Feeling much better today after talking with my midwife and finally starting with some symptoms.

Physically? Super tired. Nausea started yesterday on and off throughout the day. One episode of super light brown spotting on Saturday but nothing since. Talked to midwife about it and she was not concerned so I'm trying not to be.

Any appointments this week? Nope- nothing else until US between 7-8 weeks

Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? Not that I can think of.

QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? Back in the hotel room I stayed in over the weekend- huge comfy bed, cable, room service, and QUIET! It was amazing!

[hangry]

How far along are you?
7w1d

How are you doing mentally?
Much better after the US. And I still have symptoms, so for now good. I also passed by the day I first had spotting before, so that was encouraging.

Physically? Nausea, uneasiness. Poor sleep has already started too, I don't remember it coming this early least time!

Any appointments this week? Not until 12 wks now

Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? Nothing really

QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? A quiet spa or something where I didn't have to work, take care of a kid, cook meals, or clean. Ok, that sounds awful. I don't really hate my life that much but I'm tired and sick. Maybe I should have said a family vacation to the beach. Haha

[peanutmuse]

I have some news.

Here goes.

There is a gestational sac, yolk & possible fetal pole in my uterus. It's measuring small, viability is uncertain. It could be ok, we shall see. (Side note: my son measured almost a week behind at his first ultrasound.)

But... there is a second ectopic pregnancy in my Fallopian tube or on my ovary. It will need to removed medically. The doctor at the MFM center mentioned the methotrexate shot, if the pregnancy in my uterus fails, or surgery, if the pregnancy succeeds. (I should note that I will refuse the methotrexate shot, so surgery is 99% likely at this point.)

It’s called a heterotopic pregnancy, and the odds of it happening are 1:30,000 in spontaneous pregnancies. The doctor told me he had never actually seen it before. So that’s where we are right now. Just waiting for some blood work and to talk to my dr to make a plan.

[goldenlove3]

Omg peanutmuse. How crazy. I really hope that the pregnancy in your uterus continues to grow and that you can treat the ectopic safely. How long will you wait before during surgery?

[peanutmuse]

Mar 22, 2016 12:56:40 GMT -5 goldenlove3 said:

Omg peanutmuse . How crazy. I really hope that the pregnancy in your uterus continues to grow and that you can treat the ectopic safely. How long will you wait before during surgery?

Not sure yet. Need to talk to the doctor.

We're also looking at scheduling a closing on our house in the next week. I don't know how much more I can handle.

[goldenlove3]

Mar 22, 2016 12:58:26 GMT -5 peanutmuse said:

Mar 22, 2016 12:56:40 GMT -5 goldenlove3 said:

Omg peanutmuse . How crazy. I really hope that the pregnancy in your uterus continues to grow and that you can treat the ectopic safely. How long will you wait before during surgery?

Not sure yet. Need to talk to the doctor.

We're also looking at scheduling a closing on our house in the next week. I don't know how much more I can handle.

*HUG* I'm sorry you're dealing with so much. I hope you can catch a break soon.

[elliecat17]

peanutmuse Hugs lady That's a lot to deal with. Be kind to yourself.

[kleigh]

peanutmuse I am so sorry you are dealing with this. On top of the house closing. I was talking about this very thing with the RE yesterday at the ultrasound because we had 3 follies and 2 definitely in utero so I was concerned if there was the possibility of the 3rd as ectopic. The RE said exactly the same as you - heterotopic pregnancy is extremely rare and he'd never seen it in his 15 years of practice. Is it possible for the ectopic pregnancy to miscarry itself spontaneously ? Or not likely?

[peanutmuse]

Mar 22, 2016 13:39:11 GMT -5 kleigh said:

peanutmuse I am so sorry you are dealing with this. On top of the house closing. I was talking about this very thing with the RE yesterday at the ultrasound because we had 3 follies and 2 definitely in utero so I was concerned if there was the possibility of the 3rd as ectopic. The RE said exactly the same as you - heterotopic pregnancy is extremely rare and he'd never seen it in his 15 years of practice. Is it possible for the ectopic pregnancy to miscarry itself spontaneously ? Or not likely?

In theory, that is one of the options, to wait and see. I think this one is too big for that, though.

[sophiegrace]

shedreamsincolor and goldenlove3 I have you updated! Sorry if I misread, I don't see siggies so I had to rely on posts and obviously misread and confused some.

[sophiegrace]

peanutmuse I've been thinking of you all day. I've been really hoping for some good news for you right from the start and am crushed for you that you once again have to deal with something so shitty at a already very hectic time in your life. All my FX and TP to that little peanut has a beautiful heartbeat at your next visit and the ectopic is able to be taken care of without any further risk to you and the other babe. Please PM me if you need to chat, I know this hasn't been an easy road the past few weeks.

[sophiegrace]

danib I'm glad you have some peace of mind this go around. I'm sorry for the big blow your doc dealt you today. I understand that it's probably best physically for you, but I imagine the mental and emotional aspect of not going back to work is a doozy (not to mention finances)..

goldenlove3 good luck at your next US. Did you ever end up finding out the sex? +1 to the beach and palm trees!

kleigh I'm still so excited for you and glad you're still feeling well. I imagine the shock must have been/still is quite overwhelming.

shedreamsincolor I've had a ton of brown spotting too. It really sucks, but same as you the office wasn't too concerned when I called about it. FX it means nothing for us and is just a fluke! Add me to the tired club!

tgrimes1980 I'll send some T&Ps your way during this stressful time. That nagging feeling is one of the worst.

hangry glad you passed that milestone. I hope you continue to feel well going forward into your 12 wk US.

[sophiegrace]

How far along are you? 7 weeks

How are you doing mentally? Physically? I feel like I've been run over by a truck. This MS is no joke. Both my H and the tech at the OB today were kidding around saying it might be twins because I was golden through first tri last go around. Mentally I thought I had prepared myself for the intake appt, but I didn't sleep at all last night. I watched the clock crawl all night long and I'm suffering for it today.

Any appts this week? Intake appt with the nurse. Took vitals, urine, and at least a gallon of blood. Said she would request an antiemetic from a physician, but had no idea when it would get sent to my pharmacy.

Any q/c/t? Is anyone feeling like they're unintentionally not even thinking about this pregnancy as a protective mechanism? I realize I'm doing it even though I'm so sick and then I'm overrun with guilt.

QOTW: I would like to be in the suite we got during our honeymoon listening to the waves outside our window

[goldenlove3]

Mar 22, 2016 15:51:33 GMT -5 sophiegrace said:

goldenlove3 good luck at your next US. Did you ever end up finding out the sex? +1 to the beach and palm trees!

Haha no. We forgot to ask again. I guess we were excited over the heartbeat and just didn't think about it. It doesn't help that we have to wake up super early for the appt too. Maybe we'll remember this week!

[artmusiclife]

Mar 22, 2016 12:12:11 GMT -5 peanutmuse said:

I have some news.

Here goes.

There is a gestational sac, yolk & possible fetal pole in my uterus. It's measuring small, viability is uncertain. It could be ok, we shall see. (Side note: my son measured almost a week behind at his first ultrasound.)

But... there is a second ectopic pregnancy in my Fallopian tube or on my ovary. It will need to removed medically. The doctor at the MFM center mentioned the methotrexate shot, if the pregnancy in my uterus fails, or surgery, if the pregnancy succeeds. (I should note that I will refuse the methotrexate shot, so surgery is 99% likely at this point.)

It’s called a heterotopic pregnancy, and the odds of it happening are 1:30,000 in spontaneous pregnancies. The doctor told me he had never actually seen it before. So that’s where we are right now. Just waiting for some blood work and to talk to my dr to make a plan.

I'm so sorry to hear this!  It's a lot to process.  Sending lots of good energy and positive thoughts for strength to the embaby in your uterus.  When is your next appointment?

[artmusiclife]

How far along are you? 6w5d

How are you doing mentally? Feeling great after my u/s today. The doctor said we are on track. The measurement seemed small, but he did it SO quickly I don't know how it could have been accurate. I'm not going to worry. We saw the little heartbeat, and this is my first time ever for that (we've been trying since september 2012!!).

Physically? Feeling good right now. I'm sort of scared of eating because I'm not sure what's going to randomly sound disgusting to me at any given moment. I was eating WHOLE30 (protein, veggies, fruit, nuts, oils) for all of 2016, and now I'm eating processed white flour because it helps me tolerate other healthy ingredients! It's weird, but I'm not going to sweat it. I'm going to eat as many healthy things as I possibly can, mixed in with whatever holds it together for me.

Any appointments this week? Next appt is 2 weeks from today.

Any questions, comments, or topics you would like to discuss this week? Found out I get to quit progesterone injections and estrogen patches in 2 weeks, and I am so so happy about this!!! I'm also now cleared for exercise and intercourse! yay.

QOTW: If you could be anywhere else in the world right now where would it be? I'm in bed with my puppies on spring break with few obligations, so I'm doin alright. I would love a trip to Oahu & Maui soon. I went to college in Hawaii, so it feels like going home. I never want to leave.

[sophiegrace]

Thanks for understanding danib I had to confront a lot of emotions walking back into the OB today and I'm not sure I was ready for it. I'm so glad that you and your doctor are on the same page.

Lol goldenlove3! That's so wonderful that it was good news that got you distracted. And I get the early morning wake ups messing with you, these days I'm a zombie until about 10!

artmusiclife congrats on the heartbeat!!! What a wonderful milestone to reach. I think I'm going to look into WHOLE30. Yanno..to balance out the ice cream and cookies if my MS ever lets me eat again. +1 to being able to keep down the processed stuff a bit easier.

@sarahwithanh is the twinge kind of like a rubber band pinging around in there? I keep getting that feeling and it stops me in my tracks. Good luck with the betas, FX for beautiful numbers. I wish all of first tri had a fast forward button so I get you there too!

[shedreamsincolor]

peanutmuse. I am so, so sorry to hear this. I don't know what to say other than I'm sending you lots of prayers for that little one to be viable and that you (and your doctors) can make the best decision about how to best to keep baby (and you) safe. It's a lot to deal with.

[hangry]

peanutmuse I'm so sorry to hear of the stress you are going through. I imagine you'll be going for a follow up US in the next week? I'll be sending all the positive vibes for the uterus peanut to keep growing!!

[peanutmuse]

hangry, Follow up u/s next week, yes. I talked with my OB and she's ready to do surgery if necessary. She thinks there is still a chance that the pregnancy will be viable.