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[akraus2015]

Apr 14, 2016 9:55:38 GMT -5 peaseblossom55 said:

akraus2015 , I'm so so sorry for everything you are going through. IF and loss can be so heartbreaking. It's hard to know what the rights steps should be, perhaps taking a few months away will help. I found therapy so helpful in dealing with all of the loss/if crap. H doesn't go but it's so helpful for me.

I love my therapist. I should make an appointment to go back and see her...I haven't been in a few months.  Thank you for mentioning that.  I think I'm going to schedule something right now.

[peaseblossom55]

Apr 14, 2016 10:01:25 GMT -5 akraus2015 said:

Apr 14, 2016 9:55:38 GMT -5 peaseblossom55 said:

akraus2015 , I'm so so sorry for everything you are going through. IF and loss can be so heartbreaking. It's hard to know what the rights steps should be, perhaps taking a few months away will help. I found therapy so helpful in dealing with all of the loss/if crap. H doesn't go but it's so helpful for me.

I love my therapist. I should make an appointment to go back and see her...I haven't been in a few months.  Thank you for mentioning that.  I think I'm going to schedule something right now.

I'm glad. It can be so hard. I feel like such a different person as well.  I've been trying to make a real effort on living each day finding something to enjoy daily not IF/baby related too.  It helps me to focus on that too. 

[wannabmama]

akraus2015 I'm so sorry you are going through this. And I hear you on the crazy...I literally cannot find a link that I have not already clicked on and read to figure out what's going on with me right now. I have searched the entirety of Google. MH took my phone away from me last night. I agree with peaseblossom55 that someone to talk to is so helpful. I've had a little group I've gone to a couple times and met with a therapist who still checks in via email. It's nice to just vent to someone not invested in my life like H is. Good luck and hugs.

[icedtea]

akraus2015, I'm so sorry. You deserve the cookies and wine. I'm glad you're contacting your therapist, that can make such a difference. I have found myself googling things I would have rolled my eyes at a year ago. You are not crazy, just going through some intense stuff. Good luck, and I hope you find a better place.

[ellabee]

Oh akraus2015, I want to give you so many hugs right now. I'm sorry your husband said what he said. I'm sure he was just trying to express all the feelings that are hard to put into words about how IF can really affect people, but making someone feel like they're not themselves (and less because of it) is so incredibly hurtful. I hope that talking to your therapist can give you some comfort and guidance. ((big squishy hugs))

[Rama]

I'm so sorry, akraus2015. Melty chocolate over ice cream for you.

[akraus2015]

Apr 14, 2016 11:41:52 GMT -5 ellabee said:

Oh akraus2015 , I want to give you so many hugs right now. I'm sorry your husband said what he said. I'm sure he was just trying to express all the feelings that are hard to put into words about how IF can really affect people, but making someone feel like they're not themselves (and less because of it) is so incredibly hurtful. I hope that talking to your therapist can give you some comfort and guidance. ((big squishy hugs))

I honestly don't think he meant it to be hurtful, either.  I think he was trying to say "I get it, I understand what you're saying, I see how its affecting you", but it just came out....wrong.

[kayladawn91]

akraus2015 I am so sorry about all of that. Sending so many hugs your way!

[caer]

I'm so sorry akraus2015. I know things can be said in the heat of the moment that don't come out right but that must have been very difficult to hear. I hate how loss/IF impacts every part of our lives and our relationships. It's just not fair. Sending you the biggest (((hugs))).

[mosdub]

akraus2015 I'm so sorry. I want to give you the biggest hug. I hope you're able to see your therapist soon to sort out all of your thoughts and complex emotions.

[akraus2015]

Thanks for all the thoughts and kind words, friends. Hoping I get a chance to chat with H tonight.

[hydrangea1019]

akraus2015 I'm so sorry. IF is such a crappy thing and can change us over time and make us say things we may not mean I'll be thinking of you and YH. I also find Psalm 34:18 to be comforting in my lowest of lows ((hugs)). So many effing hugs!

[mosdub]

Apr 14, 2016 20:30:54 GMT -5 hydrangea1019 said:

akraus2015 I'm so sorry. IF is such a crappy thing and can change us over time and make us say things we may not mean I'll be thinking of you and YH. I also find Psalm 34:18 to be comforting in my lowest of lows ((hugs)). So many effing hugs!

That is a nice passage, thanks for sharing  

[hydrangea1019]

Apr 14, 2016 20:32:30 GMT -5 mosdub said:

Apr 14, 2016 20:30:54 GMT -5 hydrangea1019 said:

akraus2015 I'm so sorry. IF is such a crappy thing and can change us over time and make us say things we may not mean I'll be thinking of you and YH. I also find Psalm 34:18 to be comforting in my lowest of lows ((hugs)). So many effing hugs!

That is a nice passage, thanks for sharing  

Not a problem! A sweet friend shared that with me when we opened up to her about our loss (she also had a loss). It's one that I find myself falling back on over and over again on those bad days.

[kayladawn91]

Love that verse hydrangea1019.

[akraus2015]

Apr 14, 2016 20:30:54 GMT -5 hydrangea1019 said:

akraus2015 I'm so sorry. IF is such a crappy thing and can change us over time and make us say things we may not mean I'll be thinking of you and YH. I also find Psalm 34:18 to be comforting in my lowest of lows ((hugs)). So many effing hugs!

Love this...thank you for sharing!

[pinkcat]

I'm late, but thinking of you akraus2015! I hope you got a chance to talk to your husband last night. Lots of hugs.

[pinkcat]

wannabmama I am late and just seeing your update, but wanted to say I've been thinking about you all week. I hope you get some answers soon so you aren't in limbo anymore, and I'm crossing everything for you that it's good news.

[notagoddess]

I'm also thinking of you akraus2015. Lots of love your way. I'm sorry this is such a difficult time for you and YH.

::hugs::

[wannabmama]

Well, ladies, it's over for us on this round.

Just got the call that our betas dropped. I have to go back Tuesday to make sure they go down appropriately. But, it's time to let this little one go. Hopefully we have no complications and can try again soon.

[peaseblossom55]

Oh wannabmama, I'm so sorry. Sending you so many hugs.

[mosdub]

So sorry wannabmama. Take care of yourself.

[mosdub]

H got me flowers today, and a friend send me love via text.
I've cried/am crying. I'm glad I'm done with work for the day and can focus on my house and my little chicks (who I plan to move to the outside coop today!)

Just feeling emotionally tender today.

[ladytiffany24]

Sending so many hugs to you mosdub and wannabmama!

[caer]

All the (((hugs))) wannabmama and mosdub.

[wannabmama]

Hugs mosdub hope the little chicks help heal your heart a bit in addition to the flowers and sweet text. Here's a hug from another tender gal today.

[akraus2015]

wannabmama and mosdub, sending you all the love and hugs!

[kayladawn91]

Hugs to the ladies having a rough week!

[notagoddess]

I'm so very sorry to hear this update, wannabmama. You're in my thoughts.

Sending you hugs mosdub.

[icedtea]

I'm sorry @wannabemama

I hope the chicks help mosdub, even a little.