Post by KayVeeKay on May 29, 2015 11:28:15 GMT -5
mrsbabe614 Trust me, I'm hardly a victim here. It's my fault I lost my career, was committed, had DD taken away, and got ousted in the first place. I do a lot stupid shit. A lot. As much as I would LOVE to blame someone else, I'm the one who switched the track on my life in the first place by getting depressed, so I have no one to blame but myself.
I don't understand how that's a tactic because let's face it, it's a pretty fucking bad one. The bottom line is it IS my fault. I believe in coincidence to a point, but this goes far beyond that. This kind of shit doesn't happen to any one person by mere happenstance, which means the only explanation is I brought it on myself.
So yeah, I'm a fuck up. Maybe I have been my whole life. I don't know. Some people disagree, telling me it's not my fault or whatever other bullshit to make me feel better, but I know I was the one behind the wheel. If you get into an accident, they don't blame the passenger.
I've been through a ton of stuff in my life that has made it hard, but I don't want anyone's sympathy. I hate pity. I share because I'm looking for advice more even than support. Everyone I know with kids had them long enough ago that they don't remember the little details that necessarily helped or they aren't helpful with their answers at all.
But I digress. I'm an asshole.