FFFC
Jul 17, 2015 12:14:26 GMT -5
Post by smore on Jul 17, 2015 12:14:26 GMT -5
re: bonding with your newborn -- I remember worrying about with DD1, and then even though I was fascinated by her those first few days when we were at the hospital, my feelings had more to do with her health and well-being and not this immense "motherhood" love I was expecting. I remember thinking "is this the feeling?" "Is THIS the feeling?" "maybe THIS is the feeling...." And then one day (and I don't even remember when it was or what it was that triggered it) my heart actually felt like it was about to explode out of my chest. For me, I knew we were good and bonded.
I'm VERY worried about it this time around -- I didn't think twice about it last time, with the first, because I just knew it'd come eventually. But (and this is probably my FFFC) because our plan was One and Done, and that turned out to NOT be the actual plan due to some bad math and a horny H (oh, and hey, MOM -- thanks for the heads up that I was conceived extremely early in your cycle, too -- that would have been handy info to have when trying to stick with NFP), and I sometimes get upset that we've altered our (especially DD1's) lives so very much with this new plan, that I won't feel what I felt for DD1, and that scares the shit out of me. I already feel like a shit mom half the time (see the Work From Home post earlier in the thread), and would prefer to NOT hold that feeling full time once DD2 arrives.
Deeeeeeep breath.