"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
Post by peachesncream on Sept 13, 2016 10:32:40 GMT -5
I hate my job. I am so, so thankful it has gotten me through the past two years since I got off. But I am sick of it. I want to quit and stay home but still pay someone else to watch my kids. Lol.
I am pissed at DH about the sleep disaster that was last night. The worst part is that he's a total asshole when he's sleep deprived. He knows it and admits it and says he's sorry but sometimes he says things that still sting.
Last night was bad. DH woke me up when he came to bed at 11:00. J was up from 1:30 to 2:30 thinking it was playtime. DH finally went in when he heard me starting to cry at 2:30. Daycare provider text me at 3:00 to let me know she couldn't take J today because her daughter was in the ER with breathing trouble. My boobs woke me up at 3:45. The alarm clock for H went off at 5:00 and J woke up shortly after to eat. We were up for the day before 7:00.
Post by SheilaTheTank on Sept 13, 2016 10:43:38 GMT -5
I want to fast forward through the next month. We're beyond broke because of getting the house in order and im so busy everyday o have no time to myself other then bathroom breaks and pumping. I want to participate more but all I've been able to do is lurk a bit and post in random threads. I have like 4 threads I need to make with questions and shit but I wont be around to reply to any responses.
Also, my right boob is completely crapping out on me and I have no idea what to do. Im lucky to produce an ounce from it and it comes out as a trickle. K is refusing to nurse on that side except MOTN and then she wakes up hungry an hour later.
I hate my job. I am so, so thankful it has gotten me through the past two years since I got off. But I am sick of it. I want to quit and stay home but still pay someone else to watch my kids. Lol.
I am pissed at DH about the sleep disaster that was last night. The worst part is that he's a total asshole when he's sleep deprived. He knows it and admits it and says he's sorry but sometimes he says things that still sting.
Sometimes I leave the baby with my SIL a bit earlier on Mon and Wed and I'll head to target before work. Feels good to be baby free for a few min hugs mama
I'm sure I'll be all up in here. Or maybe this is a cue to be on my best behavior.
No no, I am totally the guilty one here. I ended up posting and then getting distracted, but I will for sure be participating in this thread as a whiner lol.
Hopefully this will give you all a laugh. My mom is driving me crazy... She was not happy with my hair when she visited. I told her it's hard right now, it's falling out like whoa bc of PP hormones and also LO pulls it if it's down. I have a lot of hair so it's not like you can tell it's missing on my head, but it comes out by the fistful... Anyway i explained this to her while she was here and she basically just accused me of causing it by "not taking care of myself" particularly bc I didn't want to get a keratin treatment while I was home over the summer. And now she will not stop harping on it. She just keeps blaming me for my hair falling out. Like randomly, I am not bringing it up. WTF.
Whine threadSept 13, 2016 13:15:34 GMT -5via mobile
Post by rachelilly23 on Sept 13, 2016 13:15:34 GMT -5
I hate that K is waking up so much. I get so angry that I have to feed her AGAIN that I get kind of mean. It's just what happens in the middle-of-the-night haze. I'm even mean first thing in the morning and H is all "Awwwwww, poor Kira, mommy is sooooo mean to you."
I hate that K is waking up so much. I get so angry that I have to feed her AGAIN that I get kind of mean. It's just what happens in the middle-of-the-night haze. I'm even mean first thing in the morning and H is all "Awwwwww, poor Kira, mommy is sooooo mean to you."
Fuck you, H. You're not the one up 5 times.
Wahhhhhh, I just want it to stop.
Omg yes. I was really upset Sunday because I was kind of mean to E in the motn with all her wake ups. I told dh I'm so tired and so angry that sometimes for a moment it scares me. Then that kept me up all night that I wad so upset with her. His response. ... she doesn't mean it she's just a baby. Just keep telling yourself that. Yes because here all this time I thought she was purposely trying to kill me slowly with sleep deprivation.
I will give that he told me after that I need to talk to him if I'm struggling.
Whine threadSept 13, 2016 16:29:30 GMT -5via mobile
Post by rachelilly23 on Sept 13, 2016 16:29:30 GMT -5
I called my H earlier and he asked me to not "complain about how hard my life is on facebook." I never complained about how hard my life is. I simply posted that we've had 3 months of awful sleep and wasn't sure how much longer I can survive it. Dramatic, sure. It was in the MOTN.
I hate that K is waking up so much. I get so angry that I have to feed her AGAIN that I get kind of mean. It's just what happens in the middle-of-the-night haze. I'm even mean first thing in the morning and H is all "Awwwwww, poor Kira, mommy is sooooo mean to you."
Fuck you, H. You're not the one up 5 times.
Wahhhhhh, I just want it to stop.
Omg yes. I was really upset Sunday because I was kind of mean to E in the motn with all her wake ups. I told dh I'm so tired and so angry that sometimes for a moment it scares me. Then that kept me up all night that I wad so upset with her. His response. ... she doesn't mean it she's just a baby. Just keep telling yourself that. Yes because here all this time I thought she was purposely trying to kill me slowly with sleep deprivation.
I will give that he told me after that I need to talk to him if I'm struggling.
At least he told you to talk to him. My H doesn't care. He expects me to suck it up, not complain to anyone, and not wake him up. I'm sort of fuming after typing that. I know he works and I SAH, but come on now!
I'm sure I'll be all up in here. Or maybe this is a cue to be on my best behavior.
No no, I am totally the guilty one here. I ended up posting and then getting distracted, but I will for sure be participating in this thread as a whiner lol.
::raises hand:: Guilty as charged on numerous accounts.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
I hate that K is waking up so much. I get so angry that I have to feed her AGAIN that I get kind of mean. It's just what happens in the middle-of-the-night haze. I'm even mean first thing in the morning and H is all "Awwwwww, poor Kira, mommy is sooooo mean to you."
Fuck you, H. You're not the one up 5 times.
Wahhhhhh, I just want it to stop.
So much this! Last night was particularly awful and I told DH I wanted to quit breastfeeding because it's been hurting so much. He said it's not an option and I need to suck it up. Ummm... My body. My decision. I get she doesn't take a bottle. Eventually she would if I quit nursing. I don't really want to quit and I talked to a LC this morning (she thinks I might have a yeast infection). But I was super ready to last night. I needed some support and I got nothing.
That's not true. He took over the meal prepping I was in the middle of when A woke up after 25 minutes and wouldn't go back down. And he cleaned up the giant mess. But I needed emotional support and got nothing. And I was mean to A and to DH. I still feel guilty.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
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Post by roseinbloom on Sept 14, 2016 12:30:45 GMT -5
For reals now: my supervisor just set up a Skype meeting with me for Friday and she said she wanted to include a discussion on leaving Bud here (she's against this at the outset) and my mental health. I'm so glad she cares, but I don't want to have to justify our decisions. It really is going to be the best thing for him/us, but even though that's true and there's no 100% perfect solution, I feel so guilty and horrible about leaving him that I don't want to have to argue the logic over my feelings. Part of me feels like if I was a real mom I would keep him with me no matter what or how hard it was and that I'm lesser for not doing it. But the real mom part of me knows that he'll be so much better off here with his dad, local pedi, and his family support system. He is so loved that if anything terrible were to happen, I know my extended family and even some friends would pretty much move heaven and earth for him.
I didn't expect she wanted to talk about personal things, so I'm kind of taken aback at the moment. And although I think it will be good overall, my stomach is in knots and I'm scared I'm going to start crying in front of her. Or go from keeping our relationship professional to baring my entire soul and then feeling humiliated. Or that she'll think I'm lazy and dumb. Ugh. I'm feeling so f'ed up about this.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." -- Maya Angelou
I'm just feeling totally defeated today. LO seemed great so I thought it would be a good day with the nanny. But her daughter was a monster today and LO was getting super upset by it, which I get it it happens. I just sent them home... On bad days it's just easier if they aren't here. I just don't want this, it's hard. I don't want to have a nanny. I wouldn't mind working some hours maybe but idk. I don't know what I want... And just feel sad about it
Whine threadSept 14, 2016 13:48:35 GMT -5via mobile
Post by rachelilly23 on Sept 14, 2016 13:48:35 GMT -5
Before K's doctor appointment, I got a call for the "parent of ('Ky-rah')" for the appointment reminder. I wanted to say "It's Kee-rah!!!", but I didn't correct her.
This was exactly what I feared when H and I were deciding on how to spell K's name. I wanted "Keira", but he couldn't get past the "I before E except after C" rule. Cue eye roll...
Omg yes. I was really upset Sunday because I was kind of mean to E in the motn with all her wake ups. I told dh I'm so tired and so angry that sometimes for a moment it scares me. Then that kept me up all night that I wad so upset with her. His response. ... she doesn't mean it she's just a baby. Just keep telling yourself that. Yes because here all this time I thought she was purposely trying to kill me slowly with sleep deprivation.
I will give that he told me after that I need to talk to him if I'm struggling.
At least he told you to talk to him. My H doesn't care. He expects me to suck it up, not complain to anyone, and not wake him up. I'm sort of fuming after typing that. I know he works and I SAH, but come on now!
I'd dump a bucket of water on him while sleeping, but I'm a vindictive bitch who is even more so when I'm sleep deprived. Seriously, though, this shit would not fly ever with me.
Does he complain about his job at all? Anytime he does, I would get up and leave the room because he should "just suck it up".
At least he told you to talk to him. My H doesn't care. He expects me to suck it up, not complain to anyone, and not wake him up. I'm sort of fuming after typing that. I know he works and I SAH, but come on now!
I'd dump a bucket of water on him while sleeping, but I'm a vindictive bitch who is even more so when I'm sleep deprived. Seriously, though, this shit would not fly ever with me.
Does he complain about his job at all? Anytime he does, I would get up and leave the room because he should "just suck it up".
Fuck that! OMG I'm so ragey for you right now.
So, we talked last night and he's got my back more than I thought. We hadn't discussed really how much I've been struggling and he's been so busy/out of the country to notice much. I just knew from previous conversations where he stood, but he's saying he's on board for sleep training starting on a Friday and will help. It'll be a couple weeks before we can start because we don't have any normal weekends coming up, but at least he understands this is a problem and I'm having a really hard time lately. There are more details surrounding the situation, but we just haven't been communicating well in general and my anxiety has been through the roof.
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