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Oct 20, 2016 17:39:29 GMT -5
Post by joy on Oct 20, 2016 17:39:29 GMT -5
So I'm going to ramble a bit here about religion, even though I know it's not something we really talk about here. I mentioned before I've had a lot of anxiety around death lately and it's made me question my religion a lot. A few nights ago I found myself googling about God and I kept reading that if you question your beliefs but want to believe, God will show himself to you. And then this happens and they both walk away okay. It's just breathtaking and scary for me all at one time.
My DH is all messed up emotionally. I took the kids out and when I got home he told me he went to the church. I don't remember the last time he's been in a church.
When I catch my daughter staring intently at something that has made her stop crying or doesn't really have anything to look (that sometimes makes her laugh), and I wonder what the hell she sees, I tell myself that she's looking at my grandmom who she knew in heaven. Their souls crossed paths; my grandmom's stayed there and Ingrid is now here. And I believe it with all my heart.
All this to say that I understand the feelings of breathtaking and scary you have based on the idea that "God will show himself to you" and you think it was through this accident. Chew on it. And feel what you feel. All of it is okay. ::hugs::
Did your husband go to work today? Is he taking a few days off? My husband had two unexplained seizures a few years ago. They were out of nowhere and resulted in a hospital stay for him. He was really shaken by the whole incident and changed in many ways in the months after. Eventually we all went back to normal, but it took time to process everything.