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[paloslee]

So it's been a week since baby max was born. Its been an emotional roller coaster. I feel like I'm always anxious. I am constantly thinking about feedings, sleep, my wellness, how my day will go, will I make it through the day?

I am trying to adjust. I was so use to doing things on my own. Getting up and going about my day. I also miss work. Seeing people. Talking with others. I am an extrovert, social person. I working with people everyday. Being home with baby seems lonely at times.

How are you feeling? What do you miss? Sorry for the Debbie downer.

[awkwardturtle]

Hugs paloslee. It will get better I'm sure.

AFM, I'm just ready to have the baby and be able to move like a normal person again. I just feel like a swollen whale.

[paloslee]

Mar 6, 2016 23:03:08 GMT -5 awkwardturtle said:

Hugs paloslee. It will get better I'm sure.

AFM, I'm just ready to have the baby and be able to move like a normal person again. I just feel like a swollen whale.

I'm keep trying to tell myself "take it day by day".

The last few weeks of pregnancy is usually the most uncomfortable.

[peachesncream]

Mar 6, 2016 22:55:47 GMT -5 paloslee said:

So it's been a week since baby max was born. Its been an emotional roller coaster. I feel like I'm always anxious. I am constantly thinking about feedings, sleep, my wellness, how my day will go, will I make it through the day?

I am trying to adjust. I was so use to doing things on my own. Getting up and going about my day. I also miss work. Seeing people. Talking with others. I am an extrovert, social person. I working with people everyday. Being home with baby seems lonely at times.

How are you feeling? What do you miss? Sorry for the Debbie downer.

Hugs momma. I am not an extrovert so I was always super intimidated to go to groups but I did make it out to a babywearing group and a breastfeeding group while on maternity leave, is there anything like that you can do? Maternity leave is the first glimpse I had at how isolating motherhood can be. If you are up for getting out of the house don't be afraid to go for a walk outside or around the mall, treat yourself to a pedicure, some people I know even swear by taking newborns to movie theaters to get out since usually a boob or bottle can keep them quiet if they fuss! If those feelings stick around please don't be afraid to talk to your doctor about it - PPD is so common and it's real and it's hard

[rosetyler72]

I'm just feeling like breastfeeding will never not hurt. Also, I expected to be off pain meds by now, but wow does it hurt in the lady bits when I skip a dose.

awkwardturtle, that feeling is the worst, the end is near. hugs to you.

paloslee, Give yourself time to adjust. It is totally fine to be overwhelmed, it'll pass and you'll find a rhythm that works for you.

[FunniBunni]

Mar 6, 2016 23:29:31 GMT -5 rosetyler72 said:

I'm just feeling like breastfeeding will never not hurt. Also, I expected to be off pain meds by now, but wow does it hurt in the lady bits when I skip a dose.

awkwardturtle, that feeling is the worst, the end is near. hugs to you.

paloslee, Give yourself time to adjust. It is totally fine to be overwhelmed, it'll pass and you'll find a rhythm that works for you.

Hang in there! I had a 2-week matra. I can do this for 2 weeks. Just 2 weeks. By then, I bet you'll be so much better! But if it feels that bad, you can always see an LC!

[carissa325]

I'm so tired of hurting. I know I've said it before but by the end of the day I can barely walk my hips hurt so bad. C/S in 8 days but I fully intend to go to my appointment today and beg to have a baby on Friday.

[DanaScullyX]

Having a preemie is super hard. I'm grateful she's healthy and I love having her here, but the issues with breastfeeding because of her immature sucking are taking a toll on me. I find myself in tears, partially of course because I'm so tired, when she won't finish a breastfeeding session . There's so much milk and it's right there for her, but when she's done with the difficult sucking, she won't go back on the boob, no matter that she's screaming and still hungry. It's hard to not get frustrated at her and at my body for not being able to do this.

Also, I keep getting engorged, and while that means I have good milk, it for some reason also means I have a day or two of poor pumping. We're off formula completely and I don't want to have to supplement and take a step backwards.

Motherhood is amazing and hard.

[zombiesquad]

Hugs to you all. New babies are quite an adjustment and can be physically and emotionally draining.

I literally dread going to bed because I know I'll be up in two hours.

I've been irritable and crabby to H lately. He was joking around last night and said something that sent me over the edge and I lashed out at him and then broke down telling him how exhausted I was. Today, he took it upon himself to get up, clean the house and hang out with DD. While DS was asleep he insisted I go take a nap. I figured with the way I handled things last night, I should take him up on it. Boy, an hour nap did a world of difference. I was still tired but at least my brain could reset a little.

I don't remember being this emotional, weepy or sensitive after I had DD. Just trying to take it one day at time and anxious to really get breastfeeding down so I'm comfortable going out for a long period of time with two kiddos.

[adorebel]

Mar 6, 2016 22:55:47 GMT -5 paloslee said:

So it's been a week since baby max was born. Its been an emotional roller coaster. I feel like I'm always anxious. I am constantly thinking about feedings, sleep, my wellness, how my day will go, will I make it through the day?

I am trying to adjust. I was so use to doing things on my own. Getting up and going about my day. I also miss work. Seeing people. Talking with others. I am an extrovert, social person. I working with people everyday. Being home with baby seems lonely at times.

How are you feeling? What do you miss? Sorry for the Debbie downer.

Yes.

My milk came in on Thursday. I cried in target for no reason. On Friday I wept because my husband sang his favorite song to dd and I felt like time was passing too fast. On Saturday I had a full meltdown about whether visitors would make the baby sick and about not feeling like I had enough time to hold my baby because my parents are here, even though it's awesome they are here and it's great to watch them hold her!

Yesterday I took a 2 hour nap and didn't have a meltdown. Yaaay. But I really think this is the lowest point hormones-wise. A week after birth we are still swinging on those pregnancy hormones while also recovering, in pain, tired, and producing our milk.

It's been a big week mama! I definitely feel it too. As for the loneliness, yes, I am an extrovert too and I think in a few weeks when you can comfortably get out often and go to groups and such it will be easier.

[sunshineshades]

No baby here yet but I'm starting to feel more freaked out about that this is real and I could go into labour any time and will I know? A fairly large part of me is hoping my doctor decides I need to be induced Wednesday, solely because then I can prepare and since I've been induced before I know what to expect. Crazy thoughts since induction Wednesday/Thursday means there's an issue.

[isolemnlyswear]

On the rollercoaster of when is this baby coming. Due Friday but knowing it could be another week or so makes me want to cry (I was almost 6 days late with DD).

I cried yesterday as I watched H and C play. He was running around and rough housing with her. I can't play with her that way anymore. It takes everything in me to just make it through the day right now....

[carissa325]

Mar 7, 2016 7:45:42 GMT -5 isolemnlyswear said:

On the rollercoaster of when is this baby coming. Due Friday but knowing it could be another week or so makes me want to cry (I was almost 6 days late with DD).

I cried yesterday as I watched H and C play. He was running around and rough housing with her. I can't play with her that way anymore. It takes everything in me to just make it through the day right now....

It really sucks to not be able to play with the older kid! I cry about that almost daily.

[awkwardturtle]

((Big hugs)) and love to everyone having a hard time. It sounds like everyone that's already had their LO is doing a great job and trying their best. You're all great mamas and you obviously care so much!

[katespade]

I got checked this morning after my round of contractions over the weekend. I'm not dilated at all. She said I felt thinned, and she could feel the baby's head is low. But I'm still closed.

I'm starting to merge into the whiny, waddly, turtle on her back mode.

[rachelilly23]

Last night was brutal. I am so sick. Can't go to the doctor until 11am. That was the earliest appointment they had, and it's not even with my doctor. I would have had to wait until 2:30 today to see her. I just need a damn antibiotic! I'm pretty sure I have a sinus infection.

Why do I have to be sick as a dog within a week of having this baby?? I really hope she stays put until I'm feeling better.

[jocountry]

DanaScullyX hugs! I am now realizing that my first LO was like you describe, also because early. I nursed, then bottle fed him BM, then pumped every feeding for a month. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, looking back. Hang in there and no matter how you feed him, you are doing great!

[jocountry]

paloslee hugs! It is a hard adjustment! Do you have friends who can come over to "see the baby" and hang out with you for a few minutes? I found people didn't want to wake me, so didn't call. I started just inviting them over last time.
rosetyler72 with you there on the painful BF! When does it get better?!

[rosetyler72]

TheCoffeeNinja that sounds awful, I hope you feel better soon. Also, I would totally banish that cat's ass from my bedroom. Mine has a one strike policy.

[katieinthecity]

paloslee, hang in there. The first few weeks is SUCH a MF. Things with newborns tend to go in 2-3 week cycles. So if you're in a rough one, the end is always just around the corner. (And if you're in a good one, don't get too comfy!) Your hormones are still all over the place too, so don't discount that. It takes them a solid month to start to settle into a new normal.

I'd definitely look into some new moms, or BFing, or babywearing, etc. groups in your area. I'm not an extrovert but one of the best pieces of advice I got when I had DS was to get out of the house every day, even if it's just to walk around the block with the baby in the stroller.

[jewel441]

It's definitely a roller coaster! Sometimes I feel like everything is going so well but then I'm terrified I'm gonna do something wrong. I check to make sure she is breathing a lot. Feeding is improving but I am still having some issues on the right with my nipple and it's so hard when she is getting frustrated and I know she is hungry and I keep having to re latch.

The hardest part for me right now is I don't feel like I could be on my own for more than like an hour because I am so slow moving and the stairs are so hard. Objectively I know I am 4 days out from major surgery and am doing amazing but it's very frustrating I feel like I move worse than I did last week when she was inside and sleeping positions are even harder now.

[SheilaTheTank]

*hugs* to everyone in this thread who is struggling. Thank you paloslee for making it.

I've been really struggling with breastfeeding. Her latch has devolved into pacman mouth and I can't seem to get her mouth wide enough unless she's full on screaming. I feel like 90% of my day is me worrying about my boobs. Im so damn frustrated at this point and its all I can do to make it to breastfeeding group on Wednesday.

I told MH last night I feel like pregnancy destroyed my body. My pelvic floor feels like it will fall out of me when I sit down to pee and I have the knees if an arthritic 80 year old. Im so happy to have a healthy beautiful daughter but I want to be able to move like I used to.

Also when the fuck will I be able to poop without the help of a giant bottle of poop pills?

[rosetyler72]

SheilaTheTank, I 2nd everything you said. I am so glad to have a healthy outside baby and wouldn't trade it for anything, but misery loves company and we are totally I this together. Lol at pacman mouth.

[jocountry]

SheilaTheTank embrace the poop pills. I took them for four weeks PP last time, and will use them even longer this time. But I hear ya, pregnancy does a number of your body!

[SheilaTheTank]

Mar 7, 2016 14:07:19 GMT -5 jocountry said:

SheilaTheTank embrace the poop pills. I took them for four weeks PP last time, and will use them even longer this time. But I hear ya, pregnancy does a number of your body!

Glad I got the 100 count bottle. 

[readinglove]

Thank you for starting this thread.

I am done. So, so done in every sense of the word. I have no patience with my students when they are being ridiculous. I'm exhausted because sleep is so not something that's happening at this point. I feel like a beached whale, walking hurts - my back and from pressure from baby. I don't want to be at work even though I love my job. I want this baby here and in my arms stat because God knows PgAL brain never stops. I feel guilty for whining because of the struggle to make this baby happen, and knowing how terribly others struggle. My tummy itches all of the time no matter how much lotion I dump on it.

Bottom line? I'm a mess. Stick a fork in me; I'm done.

[jewel441]

Definite Hugs all around!! I just wanted to share this here. We will all have really tough moments and I know I will have more. This evening I became 100% sure that our baby knows me and that I am different from anyone else who holds her. I mean scientifically, I knew that already, but she was fussing like crazy and just crying and my mom and H were both trying to soothe her, she wasn't showing any feeding signs she was just crying. As soon as I picked her up she lunged at my boob. She clearly new it was me as soon as she was in my arms. I nursed her for about a second and then fell right to sleep. It felt so amazing. Just like she was saying I love you mom.

[rosetyler72]

Guys, the sleep deprivation is a bitch. I do not know how to function like this. Also, I really want to sleep when the baby is sleeping but he doesn't sleep much unless he's being held. How the hell are you supposed to sleep ever? I am crying tears of frustration over here and breastfeeding is still super painful. *End pity party.*

[zombiesquad]

Mar 8, 2016 12:51:20 GMT -5 rosetyler72 said:

Guys, the sleep deprivation is a bitch. I do not know how to function like this. Also, I really want to sleep when the baby is sleeping but he doesn't sleep much unless he's being held. How the hell are you supposed to sleep ever? I am crying tears of frustration over here and breastfeeding is still super painful. *End pity party.*

I'm sorry. That is frustrating. I'm dealing with the same thing. Wants to be held and won't take a paci so I can get a break. Have you tried swaddling at night and when you put him down during the day? That seems to help sometimes.

[halfahippy]

I was so hoping we would graduate form weight and bili number checks today. Nope. They want her bili under 8 and it's 9.1 so we have to go back again on Thursday. So sad. I feel like we are spending more time at the doctor than not. We've been every day since we were released from the hospital. We don't have to go tomorrow, but I have an appointment at the Lactation center. Frustrated.