Up early...Baby Ripley goes for his full repair in a handful of hours. One pediatric cardiologist joked that he's no longer in the neonatal period by just a hair because he turns one month old tomorrow (and he's 9 lbs, 7 oz...3 lbs, 3 oz over birth weight). Starting to feel all the nerves. I know his surgeon (Dr. Reddy at UCSF) is fantastic, but I'm still nervous and also worried that post-op recovery will be hard. He had a couple of tet spells (where he turns blue from crying too much and oxygen levels decrease) at the hospital yesterday during pre-admission so I guess it is the right timing to have his surgery earlier than originally expected.
I hope the rest of you had a good Labor Day weekend not being in labor! Someone I know DID have a Labor Day baby (baby was due in September).
Post by coffeequeen14 on Sept 6, 2016 6:42:08 GMT -5
I'm up and starving but no one else is awake yet so I don't want to get out of bed. I have one Boulder boob and really want to pump but as soon as I'm up the rest of the family will wake and the big kids need sleep.
H goes out of town today for three days. Wish me luck. S2 is having a sleepover w my parents tonight to ease bed time a bit and give me some quality time with S1.
Lots in my to do list for today so hopefully baby M will let me put her down!
First day of first grade over here, and DS1's front top tooth fell out last night lol. That was the 5th tooth he has lost so he is ordering on toothless now :-p
Last night was hard. I have a neurology appointment at 10 am and my eyes are super puffy and red. Awesome.
I think my kid may just be formula fed. I feel hopeless over her "nursing" sessions, how much she needs, how much she doesn't get from me, the stress of trying to pump while she miiiight sleep long enough to let me pump, etc.
Last night was hard. I have a neurology appointment at 10 am and my eyes are super puffy and red. Awesome.
I think my kid may just be formula fed. I feel hopeless over her "nursing" sessions, how much she needs, how much she doesn't get from me, the stress of trying to pump while she miiiight sleep long enough to let me pump, etc.
I don't know. I'm a hot mess.
((Hugs)) joy. I hope you find a path that is right for you soon!
Last night was hard. I have a neurology appointment at 10 am and my eyes are super puffy and red. Awesome.
I think my kid may just be formula fed. I feel hopeless over her "nursing" sessions, how much she needs, how much she doesn't get from me, the stress of trying to pump while she miiiight sleep long enough to let me pump, etc.
I don't know. I'm a hot mess.
The best advice I have ever heard is "Never quit anything on a bad day." We have your back, whatever you decide
Last night was hard. I have a neurology appointment at 10 am and my eyes are super puffy and red. Awesome.
I think my kid may just be formula fed. I feel hopeless over her "nursing" sessions, how much she needs, how much she doesn't get from me, the stress of trying to pump while she miiiight sleep long enough to let me pump, etc.
I don't know. I'm a hot mess.
The best advice I have ever heard is "Never quit anything on a bad day." We have your back, whatever you decide
How do you not feel like a failure when she nurses for 1.5 hrs, falls asleep for three minutes, then cries for more food so you end up feeding her 3 oz of formula?
The best advice I have ever heard is "Never quit anything on a bad day." We have your back, whatever you decide
How do you not feel like a failure when she nurses for 1.5 hrs, falls asleep for three minutes, then cries for more food so you end up feeding her 3 oz of formula?
I cried for - like - two hours after that.
You are 100% not a failure. You are working with a LC right? I have known many many mothers who BF and supplement. That's an option, too. I am sorry that it isn't going easily for you
Today is DH's first day back at work since the baby was born so today will be my first day alone with her. It's not really starting off on the right foot since she was up every hour last night and then wouldn't go back to sleep since 3:30 am so I'm exhausted and frustrated with her.
Last night was hard. I have a neurology appointment at 10 am and my eyes are super puffy and red. Awesome.
I think my kid may just be formula fed. I feel hopeless over her "nursing" sessions, how much she needs, how much she doesn't get from me, the stress of trying to pump while she miiiight sleep long enough to let me pump, etc.
I don't know. I'm a hot mess.
Be kind to yourself. If all the combo feeding is too much, try to remember formula is not evil. And your DD will be fine.
Praying for you and baby R, shanny! Hope all goes well.
Hugs, joy! I've been in a similar position with my first two and it's so hard. I hope things get better, either BFing or FFing or a combo.
Baby girl has her first cold. I wasn't feeling well yesterday, but I was hoping it was just my sinuses. But poor girl is so stuffy and can't eat as much. She is still in a good mood, so I hope things don't get worse.
The idea of stopping all together just makes me weepy. I have no idea why. It's not guilt over formula - I don't really have that - it's just something deeper.
I'm fine with combo feeding. Maybe that will be where I land because I truly cannot keep up with demand either in milk supply or time dedication. I feel very overwhelmed at the thought of trying to exclusively breastfeed.
I also want to add I think BF gets easier with time. When are you pumping? How much are you supplementing? I'm losing track of days. How old is LO? A week right?
I forgot to update after I posted earlier. I had night duty with DD and she was fussy from 10ish until her next feeding at 11:30, didn't wake up until 3am for a diaper change and then again at 6:30. MH is so pissed because when he has night duty he's up all the time with her. He thinks DD hates her but I told him it's not that. We ended up switching formula but not changing it out in our Baby Brezza so MH will make bottles with the old formula and only make two ounces at a time. I told him a million times make 3 ounce bottles of the new formula. Yeah, its more work but she's not fussy.
I have a lot of strong feels about MH lately, I can't expect him to follow directions when I asked him months ago to save money to cover the mortgage and I'll save money for baby stuff. Didn't find out until two days before having DD that he never saved for the mortgage. So right now I'm figuring out how to save to cover the mortgage or go back to work in five weeks. I might just let payments slide and set up payment arrangements with the bank.
The idea of stopping all together just makes me weepy. I have no idea why. It's not guilt over formula - I don't really have that - it's just something deeper.
I'm fine with combo feeding. Maybe that will be where I land because I truly cannot keep up with demand either in milk supply or time dedication. I feel very overwhelmed at the thought of trying to exclusively breastfeed.
I was so overwhelmed with breastfeeding ds1. I am almost positive I had PPA, and I struggled emotionally the whole 7 months I ebf'd until I finally started formula. Looking back I have no idea why I did that to myself when formula is totally fine. The pp hormones make things hard.
Having a newborn is tough! It's such an emotional time without the feeding issues. However you choose to feed your kid is fine because that's what works for your family.
Last night we festival ds2 at 10 and then put him to bed. He didn't wake up until 4:00. Omg, what a long stretch of sleep! But I think my body was not used to that much sleep and I couldn't really fall back asleep for awhile after because I felt so "rested".
His 1 month appt is today. And last night I put away his newborn clothes because his torso is so long. So many feels about that. DH is 99.9% sure he is done, and I'm probably at 85% sure, but I am super sad about never using these clothes again.
I also want to add I think BF gets easier with time. When are you pumping? How much are you supplementing? I'm losing track of days. How old is LO? A week right?
Oh yes, it gets easier. DD1 would suck me dry in the first 3 weeks while nursing for actual hours straight. Then she gave me an oversupply with all the sucking. But I remember realuzing about a month before weaning her that it took less time to nurse her all day than a single "short" feed took in the newborn phase.
joy - long shot, but has baby girl been evaluated by an LC for tongue and lip tie?
Post by gratefulgirl on Sept 6, 2016 8:04:21 GMT -5
DD3 has been out of some of her newborn clothes for a week or so. I salve my sorrow by looking forward to cute stuff in the next size and thinking of all the space in our house once the little sizes are handed down.
First - thank you all for being supportive. I would be lost without all of you to cry to some days. Today being one of them. ::group hug::
So, I'm trying to pump as often as she feeds so each feed contains some breastmilk. However, in practice, it becomes hard. I get about an ounce total over ~ 20 minutes each pumping session. If I can sit long enough to do it, that is. I can't hold her or easily deal with spit up while pumping so interruptions happen. I also need to sleep so sometimes sleeping wins over pumping.
I thought I'd just nurse her yesterday instead and was feeling super proud when she latched immediately and nursed from both sides for a good long while. I need to use a shield, which had milk in it when she finished, so I know she got some from me. But, she cried, rooted, and ate her fingers after so I gave her an ounce of formula. Twenty minutes later, she sucked down two more with my husband. And that's when I asked why the fuck I was torturing myself?
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