Crap. Just catching up on everything. Today has been crazy. We are still waiting to find out if they will discharge us today. I appreciate all the encouraging words!
In some ways it's just not nearly as bad as I expected but in other ways it's awful. Each day my pain gets a little more. My legs and feet are extremely swollen from the Pitocin and IV meds. I'm experiencing nausea again but I think it has to do with being constipated. I cannot bend over and it's hard to scooch and get positioned in bed for bf-ing.
They have me really doped up but as soon as I miss a dose I regret it. Right now I'm on Motrin, Tylenol, Roxicodone, Zofran and colase. There is no denying I just had a major surgery.
As far as emotionally. I've been crying a lot I think due to the hormones, but also just feeling stress over a baby who is struggling to latch, is losing weight, and whose bilirubin gets higher everyday. I'm no longer struggling with the fact that I had to have a csection. I guess I feel like it sucks that my body worked against me but really don't feel it would have been safe for either of us to try to deliver vaginally. Knowing that I could not change those circumstances has been really great for me mentally.
So we started supplementing with the S&S system. Also gave a pasci because he was fussing so much. I had wanted to hold off but I think it soothed him enough to where we were able to get through a later. As for the nipple shield the LC'd don't recommend it for me. They say I'm too large busted plus my nipple isn't flat or inverted in the slightest.
One of the first things I asked was if he was tongue tied and was told no.
I just need to figure out a solid calming plan that won't put him to sleep,
I am seriously still trying to catch up on everything. Being a new parent is a hellish, crazy, sleep-deprived, but doped up on love time.
Beau is really latching inconsistently. Sometimes he just becomes so frantic you can't get him to calm down or eat. He just screams. When he does latch he falls asleep a lot! He also is going in for the 3rd day in a row testing for Jaundice. If he'd just eat then it would probably clear itself up but he wont. He's already lost one full pound and I had a big cry yesterday because now we are needing to formula supplement so he can start having more bm's and pee diapers to clear up the jaundice. I really don't like supplementing but my milk hasn't come in yet. Ugh stress.
Hope everyone had a really great Thursday. Going to try and get some sleep now. Zzz.....
We're going for Miles' weight recheck this morning. He has been feeding much easier after the tongue tie was clipped. I'm also meeting with a lactation consultant. I'll be happy for any pointers they can give for when he gets all wound up.
We found out yesterday that H's dad has pancreatic cancer. We'll find out more information on Monday. He lives in California and isn't very close to H or his brother or sister. It still sucks. Once we know more we'll figure out if he'll be able to come to Georgia or if Miles first trip will be to California. We're trying to stay optimistic, but pancreatic cancer is a tough one and the doctors think he's had it a while.
I need those pointers! Beau is getting so hangry he won't latch. Also, I'm so sorry to hear about your FIL. I pray things turn around!
I got really itchy with my 1st csection but not this one. You are smart to stay ahead of the pain.
As far as nursing, Ethan is great at latching but then he struggles with staying latched. This is mainly due to his size I think. The lactation consultants recommended a nipple shield and he does a pretty good job except he's like Beau and falls asleep. The shield makes it easier for him to stay latched and he doesn't have to work as hard to get milk out
I asked about the nipple sheild the lactation consultant told me that with my breasts being so large and not having any issues with inverted nipples that in the long run she does not recommend using one for me !she told me it would make it harder for me in the long run. I'm going to ask for a 2nd opinion though.
Ill say a little prayer that you start dilating. I never knew that once water break apparently contractions are much more painful because there isn't the bag of waters serves as a cushion. You have totally got this!
Oh my goodness!! What a doll! Congratulations. Make sure to stay ahead of the pain. Day 2 has been the first day I feel like a real surgery patient as far as pain goes. Let us know if you need anything
You ladies are the best! My recovery is finally getting better now that I'm not nauseous all the time and also not nearly as itchy. My incision site is really starting to bother me though so I'm trying my best to stay in front of the pain.
Nursing has been a bit of a challenge because he is falling asleep A LOT! Also, little guy keeps getting very shallow latches. We will start off right and then he kind of backs off until it's just the tip of the nipple in his mouth. We are working with our lactation nurse on it though.
I wanted to let you all know how much I appreciate all the encouraging words given. It was hard for me, but pretty much the last remaining hope I had of sticking to my birth plan was that he would not go to the NICU. Based on the fact that I had started to get a small fever right out of surgery I know that the csection was a huge factor to this part of my birth plan being successful!
Been at 4cm for 4 hours. He's posterior still and my cervix are swollen. They are recommending a csection. I'm waiting on a second opinion. I can't stop crying at this point. I'm so disappointed my body is working against me.
Well now that there is no pain I can't help but laugh. Y'all I'm only at 3.5. Pitocin has been upped to 20. There is no way in fuck I would have made it unmedicated unless I was birthing in some 3rd world country with a doc that doesn't speak English who happened to figure out a way to keep me alive using some really good voodoo. If I'm not dialated much more by 5p they are going to start me on an internal monitor, which I finally agreed to if at that time there is no progress.
Also rolling over on an epidural totally feels like you've got a balloon that you are sitting on for an ass. Like if I sat up straight without help on both sides I would have just fallen to one side. Lol.
Y'all are so so sweet and I'm hoping it's not too disappointing, as it was for me at first, but we got the epidural. At 1130a I was still at a 1.5 and posterior with a pain level of 5 (tears). Since we were 9 hrs in from my water breaking they wanted to up the Pitocin significantly. I knew at that point I wasn't going to make it the long haul without an epidural and no warm tub option. We were already to the point of depleting the pain management options we brought and every time we'd start to get the hang of it they'd get worse. It really is difficult to stay ahead of the pain on Pitocin! Last check I was at 2cm. So Pitocin is now on 12 and they are going to check me in an hour. Nurse is predicting a 9pm birth.
I'm glad I got the epidural based on my situation but I'm disappointed in the situation overall. Can't win them all. My win will be holding Beau once he's born healthy and happy!
9am. Well I'm already in tears over these goddamned contractions. I'm doing some heat packs because with my water already broken for so long they are not recommending the tub. I could do shower but I'm handling them better laying down because I feel them coming on a little better.
Here's the kicker. Still posterior, 1.5cm ONLY, but 100% effaced. They aren't upping my Pitocin anymore for now (I'm only at 3 right now) and are thinking of maybe reducing since my contractions are fairly close together.
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